The Lord is too good!

I want to share a cool personal story that happened with God and myself the other night. You may or may not know that I had been praying to move here since 2006, 6 years. Through the 6 years of waiting I thought the reason it wasn't happening was because God was preparing someone to move here with, so I wouldn't be coming alone. Well, when I was invited to move here July, 2011 I realized that was not why it had taken 6 years because I found out I would be moving here alone. In the 6 months of preparing to move here and actually getting here God and I had many conversations about that, moving here alone. I finally shut up long enough to understand Him say that I am coming here alone because He wants me to rely on Him and turn to Him alone in a way I haven't before. See I like people, I love people, I am too often more quick to turn to a friend or loved one than I am the Lord in a time of need, whether for advice, answers, comfort, fun or affection and He told me I am coming here to receive all of that from Him without the distraction of "others". So that was a long introduction to my story but now it will make more sense to you :)
Okay, so I have been sick on and off again for the past 2 and half weeks. A few days ago I was really frustrated because I hadn't been able to sleep for a couple days, EDH(city electricity) wasn't coming on at night which makes it more difficult to sleep, I didn't feel good, the kids were not their best that day and I was just tired. When it was time to lay down, again not having EDH, I turned on some Laverne & Shirley to fall asleep to, didn't work. I decided to play some of my worship music on my laptop in hopes of falling asleep to that, that didn't work. Then I decided to put a movie in because anyone who knows me well know I can NOT stay awake through a movie. I put in Blindside. As I watching it I felt like the Lord was asking, "Why are you watching this movie, why are you trying to distract yourself with things? Why aren't you in my Word and resting in the peace I give you." I thought about that for awhile but continued to be a fool and stuck with my original plan, falling asleep to the movie. As I continued to watch the movie I couldn't ignore what the Lord had asked me. So like a fool I thought well maybe if I go read my Bible all the background noise will fade away or EDH will turn on....I sure am lame. I kicked myself for that and then remembered why I am here, to get lost in the Lord, rest in Him and be obedient to His voice. I decided resting in the Word of God was a much better plan than all my previous plans. I jumped off my bed and as soon as I pushed stop on the movie EDH came on! I cried and thanked the Lord and apologized for being so foolish. Then I went to sit down and open the Word, I asked the Lord what I should read and He said to read the Psalm that I would read for the next day. I opened up my Bible to Psalm 20 and cried my eyes out! Why am I so ridiculous. Why do I have to be so human and try to distract myself from Christ. All He wants to do is love on me, hold me in His arms and comfort me and yet I continually push Him away, even out here in Haiti by myself. There is no better place to be than in the arms of Christ and there is no better peace than the peace that comes from my Savior. I don't deserve His loving kindness and yet He never holds it back from me. Now read some of the words I read that night and be blessed :) 


   Psalm 20
    For the director of music. A psalm of David.

 ¹ May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
   may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
² May he send you help from the sanctuary
   and grant you support from Zion.
³ May he remember all your sacrifices
   and accept your burnt offerings........

I love my Savior!!!